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Last week was not a good week! I started out with a great plan, but the week did not go according to plan. I ended up with several lunch and evening work commitments, leaving most of my menu uncooked and having to make tough restaurant choices to try and stay on plan. I did OK, not fabulous. I learned a lot though! I was trying not to negative self talk, and told myself after eating out that I would just get back to it tomorrow/next meal. This is good, however when the next day came around and I still was eating out and not really following the plan as closely as I should have and still telling myself next time . . . I realized that at some point you have to change your behavior! So I give myself a thumbs up for not talking my self down, but thumbs down for not changing the behaviors. The good news is when I stepped on the scale I was down 2.4!

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I don’t think it was just my food choices that got neglected last week!

So my plan for this week is to be prepared! Make sure I am fixing my own food to stay on track, it will taste better and cut back on all the extra fat and sodium that I definitely don’t need. I am going to have another crazy busy work week (less eating out though!!). Being prepared will definitely help me be successful. You will notice I have some repeats this week, got to use up last weeks ingredients!!! LOL

Also, I am off to purchase some tennis shoes today. This may sound obvious, but it is very easy to not exercise when you don’t own a pair of appropriate shoes! 🙂 So this week I am working on incorporating some exercise and also going to try and get some more water in me, I am definitely not drinking enough!

Week #3 Menu
Sunday: Blueberry Scones, Breakfast Burrito, Jambalaya, Salad
Monday: Leftover Apple Waffles, Leftover Jambalaya, Chicken with Mushroom Sauce, Mashed Potatoes, Snap Peas
Tuesday: Oatmeal/Cereal and Fruit, Aromatic Noodles, Slow Cooker Pork Tacos
Wednesday: WW Pancakes with Strawberry Sauce and Canadian bacon, Leftover Taco (as a salad), Leftovers
Thursday: Leftover pancakes, Lunch Out, Meatballs and Spaghetti
Friday: Oatmeal/Cereal and Fruit, Leftover Meatballs, Pizza and salad

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I love sweet flavors in the morning! Most weekdays I am satisfied with oatmeal, cereal or whole grain english muffins and fruit. But on the weekends we love to eat big breakfast/brunch. I made the apple waffles yesterday (will post recipe tomorrow) and they were wonderful. I also have made Ellie Kriegers whole grain pancakes with strawberry sauce which are excellent. But I really love muffins, breads and scones. I have found a few recipes and decided to play around with one this morning. This is not a buttery, biscuity type scone, it is almost a muffin top. Next time I might top it with a few toasted sliced almonds to give it a little more texture, but these are really good. Swapping out much of the butter, using buttermilk instead of cream and using half whole wheat flour cut these down to only 2.5 points per scone! If you don’t have a food processor you can cut the butter in with a dough blender thing or a fork. But this recipe takes 5 minutes to put together in the food processor, so I highly recommend it!

My son really liked these, even more than the delicious breakfast burrito sitting next to it!! Quickly after finishing his plate of food, he downed two more scones making happy mouth noises the whole time. (By the way the burrito is simply 3 egg whites, 2 eggs, half a chopped red bell, half a small chopped onion, chopped mushrooms, chopped canadian bacon and topped with a pinch of ww cheese, salsa and greek yogurt). This whole plate of food is 9.5 points. So good! I had a second scone with a cup of coffee for a snack later in the day and they are perfect as a tea time snack as well!

Blueberry Scones
1 cup Whole Wheat Pastry Flour
1 cup AP Flour
1/4 cup sugar
1 tbsp baking powder
1/4 tsp salt
1 tbsp lemon zest
1/4 cup light butter cold and cut into pieces
3/4 cup buttermilk
1 egg
1 tsp vanilla
1 cup blueberries (I used frozen, unsweetened – don’t thaw)

Preheat oven to 400 degrees. Line baking sheet with parchment.

Add dry ingredients through lemon zest into food processor. Blend for a few seconds until the dry ingredients are combined. Add butter and pulse about 10 times until it is a fine, grainy texture.

Add the wet ingredients and pulse until barely combined. Remove to another bowl. Fold in the blueberries.

Drop by large spoonfuls onto baking sheet into 12 scones. I used an ice cream scooper that was about 3/4 full. Bake 18 minutes. Serve warm.

WW Points: 2.5

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I hope the answer to that question is yes! I lost it today and I am fighting that ‘you have no will power’ negative self talk thing. I know in the long run it doesn’t matter, what matters is what I do next and working to reduce the times when I overindulge. But it is hard not to berate myself for making bad choices.

So today started off good! My boy was spending the night at a friends, so I skipped the apple waffles (decided I would get up early and make them for inauguration day instead!). Instead I kept it simple with a bowl of Frosted Mini-Wheats.

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On my way to pick up my boy and spend the day with friends I ate this banana.

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After this is when it gets dicey! The plan for the day was to take the ferry into SF this afternoon and play tourist at Pier 39, take the kids to the arcade and then head home. A great plan! But first we went to lunch at one of my favorite mexican food places . . .yikes! Now I make mexican style food at home a lot, we like our spicy food! But going to a mexican restaurant is a huge challenge for me. I remember a few years ago when I tried the whole low carb thing, I actually quit the diet at a Chevy’s. If you read Atkins book, he says if you fall off the low carb wagon you will balloon up and literally have to start all over. I think he intended it to give people motivation not to cheat, but I of course took it as a doomsday scenario!

Anyways, I love chips and salsa and guacamole, a lot! And when sitting down hungry in front of a large basket of these things I tend to lose it. When I sat down I decided that instead of constantly dipping into the basket of chips, I would grab 12 at a time (or a ww portion of 3 points) and I would order one of my favorite soft tacos (as opposed to the usual 2) and eat half of my rice and beans. Then my friend ordered guacamole to share after I had already eaten my 12 chips. I proceeded to eat another 2 portions of chips, about 1/2 cup of guac and I also ate most of my rice and about half my beans. The only thing I didn’t do was a big old margarita. YIKES!

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Then after walking around Pier 39 I got a cup of coffee and a biscotti, not a horrible choice but I could have done without the additional treat. But, in my defense, everyone else was getting fresh mini-donuts with cinnamon sugar . . . I know no excuse!

It took forever for us to get home on the ferry, and then we had an additional 30 minute drive home from there. So I was really hungry when I got home! So I had a mini cinnamon bagel and a ww 1 point container of cream cheese. Then I made the turkey chili my meeting leader posted on Saturday. It is chock-full of veggies. Her version was a 1 point chili per 1 cup serving (very cool!) However, I thought it needed some more beans, spices and some other ingredients. My version came out to about 3 points for a total of 16 servings. I also finally roasted the pumpkin that was sitting on my counter with a little cinnamon and salt and olive oil spray. Next time I will add some spicy stuff to it with maybe chili powder or cayenne.

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Anyways, by the end of the day, I ended up about 8 points over my daily points limit. Not bad for how many treats I had, but sucks to start the week this way! I need to be less swayed by others around me, just because there was chips and guacamole does not mean I have to eat it. How bout all of you, do you struggle with friend eating? What do you do to stay satisfied while dining out with friends?

Turkey Chili (my way!)

20 oz Extra Lean Ground Turkey
1 medium onion, diced
5 cloves of garlic, minced
2 medium zucchini, small dice
1 yellow squash, small dice
1 1/2 cups carrots, small dice
1 green bell pepper diced
1 red bell pepper diced
2 tbsp chili powder
1 tbsp cumin
1 tsp cayenne
1 tsp garlic powder
1/2 tsp onion powder
1/2 tsp oregano
4 oz tomato paste
28 oz crushed tomatoes in puree
14 oz diced tomatoes with green chilies
14 oz diced tomatoes
4 cups fat free chicken broth
1 cup frozen corn
1 can black beans, drained and rinsed
2 cans kidney beans, drained and rinsed

Spray non-stick stock pot with olive oil spray. Saute all the veggies and garlic together for 3 – 4 minutes. Add ground turkey and brown. Add seasonings and saute 2 minutes. Add tomato paste and caramelize 2 minutes stirring frequently. Add in remaining tomatoes and broth. Bring to a simmer, cook 15 minutes on medium. Add in beans, simmer 30 minutes. Add in corn and simmer another 10 – 15 minutes.

Serving size: 1 cup for 3 points
Approximately 16 servings

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tinkSo today was my niece’s birthday party, with Tinkerbell and a tinkerbell cake made by me! I was so busy I didn’t eat lunch before I left and assumed there would be some type of lunch food at the party. Well there was snacky stuff, but no food, food. Oops! So I snacked on hummus and pita chips and some cheese and crackers. I was busy assisting with crafts, etc. so I didn’t feel overly hungry. When it came time for me to serve cake, I cut and served it. I had a small scrap that fell off, but even though I had given myself permission to have a piece of cake, I didn’t really want one. I have had it several times, it is delicious (I am a good baker), but I didn’t need to have a piece or frankly even wanted to have a piece.?! This is new, I don’t expect it to happen often, but I simply listened to my body. I didn’t want the cake, so I didn’t eat the cake!!! I even brought home a piece for my boy, and my sis asked as I was leaving if that was all I was taking and I said, “yes” and that was that! Go Me!!

Anyways, I was hungry when I got home for a meal. So I grabbed some Southwestern turkey burgers I had premade in the freezer and cut up some shoestring sweet potatoes and baked them in the oven. Sorry for the bad picture, but I had left my camera in the car so it was done on my cell phone! I got this “idea” from Roni over at Green Lite Bites and they are really delicious. In addition to her ingredients I added onion, garlic and some chipotle in adobo. Then I wrapped them individually in freezer wrap and froze them. The take two minutes to defrost in the microwave and 10 minutes to cook on my grill pan! I topped it with ketchup, mustard, red onion, tomato, smashed avocado and fat free jack cheese! This is quite a meal for 9 points! And if you haven’t been to Roni’s site . . . go now!!! They are great!

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Onto this weeks menu . . . I will post any recipes that are share worthy later in the week!
Sunday: Breakfast Burritos, Birthday party, Southwest Turkey Burgers and sweet potato fries
Monday: Apple Whole Wheat Waffles (new recipe too!), 1 point Turkey Chili, Baked Sweet potato, Salad
Tuesday: Leftover Waffles, Leftover Turkey Chili as a taco salad, Jambalaya and salad
Wednesday: Oatmeal, Leftover Jambalaya, Chinese Chicken Salad
Thursday: Corn & Green Chile Frittata, Leftover chicken salad, Chicken with White Wine Mushroom Sauce, Yukon Gold Mashed potatoes, snap peas
Friday: Frittata, Leftover Chicken, Pork and Veggie Stir fry, rice
Saturday: Whole wheat pancakes with strawberry sauce, . . .

This was a very interesting week! I was really stressed out last weekend and didn’t menu plan. So needless to say there was a bit much of the eating out this week! I was a little nervous when I went to weigh in this morning, but I was down 6.2lbs! I think even though I ate out and didn’t do it absolutely perfectly, I ate a little more normally. The first few days I was snacking, a lot . .. this is my typical response to beginning a new eating plan. I go through what I call mental deprivation. I am not hungry, but mentally I know I am trying to make different choices, so I get frantically hungry! I know it sounds crazy, but it is just how I react. So I guess in a way it was good that I got totally stressed out and ended up eating out. I knew I couldn’t snack because the take-out always has more calories than home meals. And I was really busy all week, so I just didn’t have time to obsess or feel deprived.

But next week I am anxious to get back on track! So I already have a menu together and have done my shopping! I am really going to try and take this whole week one choice and decision at a time. I think this will keep me focused on the here and now and not worry about what is going to happen a month from now. I have made a total commitment to myself to just keep going. I am not going to stress if I make a bad decision and eat french fries or have ice cream. I am just going to go on to the next decision and no matter what I am going to go to my meetings and step on the scale. I am too good at ignoring my weight, so I am taking it one day, one decision and one meeting at a time and I am just going to keep going no matter what happens!

Tomorrow will be tough though! My niece’s birthday party is in the afternoon, and I have almost finished her three tier Tinkerbell cake…plus I am sure there will be lots of wonderful food. I am just going to take it easy and frankly after working on her cake for 2 -3 days, I really won’t miss having a piece. I know I can have a piece, but I don’t feel like blowing all of my extra points on a piece of cake. If I have time I am going to make some carrot cake cupcakes that are in one of my new WW cookbooks I bought at the meeting today. . . 4 points versus 15-20 seems like a good trade off to me!! If I like it I will post the recipe 🙂

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I have been trying to write this post for two weeks now. Every time I start I delete it because what I have to say represents an evolving change in my thinking. But I need to say it because I would like my blog to be part of my accountability for change, big changes that I am committed to making in my life. The best way I can describe my current state of being is I got stuck and have stayed stuck for the last 10 years. Wow! That is a really long time, but it has been that long. When I had my son I had one major goal and that was to finish school so that I could have some chance of supporting us. Plus after everything I finally knew what I wanted to do. And I took my son to my aunt and grandma every morning, babysat kids in the afternoon and worked my a** off for 2 1/2 years to accomplish this goal. I was so proud of myself when I finished, but petrified at the same time. I now had to get a real job and really support myself and my son. Not the average goal of a new college graduate at the age of 24. And it was and is the hardest thing I have or will ever do. And I have done many things well, I have progressed in my career and have a wonderful (albeit quirky!) 13 year old.

However, when I look back at this transition, I still am the same person I was at 24. I weigh the same, I make the same mistakes over and over again in many areas of my life. Basically I got stuck!

Did you ever see that movie “Defending Your Life” with Albert Brooks? In it he dies and goes to limbo where he has to go through his life (in movie clips) and his past life and convince this panel that he is ready to progress to the next level in his next life. What holds people back from progressing . . . fear! Fear is the big enemy in the movie, Brooks’ character spends much time making excuses about the circumstance (valid or otherwise) why he made the choices he made, but in the end he had to overcome his fear to move on.

See the connection? I am stuck like Albert Brooks character due to my fear. What am I afraid of? The past, plain and simple. I have made a lot of mistakes with relationships and other decisions that I now totally regret and I have not been willing to open myself up to those things so I just stayed the same. Have I made the best decisions with my money, no! I should have saved more, spent less but at the age of 24 every dime I had was needed for the basics in life (food, roof, daycare costs). And any time I got any extra money I was so excited to get a few treats (like a new shirt or a meal out) I would spend that money. But starting 2-3 years ago I am making enough money that this is not the case. We have more than we need and although I have started saving a little and began a little while ago making better decisions I should be doing a lot better. I am staring down the barrel of needing a new car soon, a child in high school who will drive and start college in 5 years. And I know that I just need to change my thinking about money, because the reality of someday owning my own home and having a decent amount of savings is there I just need to make it happen.

I also got stuck in my weight . . . big time. I have never been skinny, weight is always and always will be something I have to be concerned about. But I accepted myself for who I am and love myself many years ago. So why have I not gotten unstuck? Fear! If I get unstuck, lose weight, romance may rear it’s head. This shouldn’t be a bad thing, I would like to be in love, but my last relationship was such a disaster and I got caught up in a really bad situation that although it would be easy to point fingers was just as much my fault for sticking around. And with my son in the picture, I think staying fat has eliminated that possibility. Not that you can’t meet someone if you are fat, but let’s face it, this severely limits you.

So what now? How do I get unstuck?

Well this, for me, is the first step. Writing this in an open forum (declaring my problems) is in a way a first step. Making these changes will not be easy, and what I need is accountability. This blog will be part of that accountability. When I think back to going to college and having a newborn baby and how I achieved that, it was one day at a time. I got up and went to school because I had paid the money and my aunt was expecting me to bring my son so I could go to class. And I had that little baby who needed to have a mom with a future. I was passionate about what I was doing and discovering my creativity and using it to help pay the bills. Payback for my accountability.

So now I have a 13 year old who only knows a single, fat mom. He has never seen a successful marriage/relationship up close (other than his aunt/uncle and others but not in his daily life) or had a mom who loves to be physically and socially active. This makes me sad. He thinks of me as someone who works really hard and takes care of him. And cooks really good. I want to be more than that for me and for him (I am more than that). I want him to see a whole thriving person and I need to let go of my fear and become the person I was meant to be. I am smarter than this and am the type of person who doesn’t let things get in their way. A little fear of the unknown will not stand in my way. So one day at a time toward living a healthier life physically, mentally and financially. The rewards are a little unknown, but I know a 13 year old who will be proud of me for these accomplishments and I will be proud of myself for not letting fear stop me!